What's in A Name

I'm having a weird day. I've been really emotional. I think I held it together at work pretty well, but now I'm home and my mind won't stop. I'm so anxious about naming our son. I want to him to have a name that fits him, not just something I like. I want him to like and be proud of his name. We've known for a while that his middle name will be Reed. This is after Tanner's cousin who passed away a few years ago. He's the closest thing Tanner has ever had to a brother. Reed was an amazing, funny, but above all, godly man. We would be so lucky to have our son turn out like Reed.

His first name, however, has been a much bigger challenge. We've had our list going for years with names we like. But when it comes to attaching one of those names to an actual person, the game quickly changes. Part of the reason for finding out the sex of the baby was so we could call him by his name. Although I'm 99% sure of what his name will be, I still find it difficult to use. I tend to get a little anxious inside when other people use his name. I think part of it is just that I'm not ready for other people to be a part of his life. It's just been me and his daddy up to this point. His grandparents, aunts, uncles and friends are all very excited to meet him. I just feel like if other people know his name and call him by his name they have some kind of hold on him. I am SSSOOO the possessive momma in the wild who eats her young because they were touched by someone who is not me!

I feel like a complete crazy person for feeling this way. Can I blame hormones? If I'm already this possessive, how will it be once others can hold him and see him and touch him. I don't want to be one of those crazy moms who won't accept help or let anyone touch my child. But.....if I am, consider yourself warned. Shakespeare said that a rose by any other name would still smell sweet. I'm sure my son - by whataver name he gets - will still be the same little person. I just don't want him to resent us for saddling him with a name he can't identify with.

I know we have to decide on a name, but I reserve the right to change my mind until we have to put it on his birth certificate! Sorry, Little Man! Your mommy is CRAZY!!!